Monday, August 25, 2008

8 Days a Week

It's been an 8-day week for us, a whirlwind of 8 days which have brought so much change to our lives, yet have gone by so slowly as well. I feel as though I have experienced every minute of these 8 days...it feels like far more than 8 days have gone past.

I took the advice of the majority of you and decided to not go in for the ultrasound today. My mom told me, if I were in Canada now, I wouldn't be having an u/s, so why bother getting an extra one today. I agreed. I called at 10am to cancel the appointment.

At 12:45pm (I happen to know the exact time because I was looking at the clock, waiting for my online class to start back up), I had a sudden very sharp pain in my lower stomach region. I ran to the bathroom, thinking that perhaps it was one of those crazy weirdo gas problems. As soon as I got there, the pain got even more intense, and I ran back out to lie on my bed. The pain was getting stronger and sharper, spreading from what I assumed was my uterus all the way up through my stomach, up to my chest. I could neither lie down nor sit up, nor could I find any sort of position that alleviated the pain. I writhed and moaned in pain for 15 minutes, praying to God to protect my baby and me, frightened to death about what could be happening. Was this the beginning signs of an ectopic? Was my body going through a miscarriage?

My parents (who are both physicians too, sure comes in handy :) said to see if I could go in for the u/s, and thankfully the original time slot was available. By the time of the u/s, the pain had significantly subsided into a dull ache.

The u/s tech said, "This is a Clomid pregnancy? Likely you had a nasty cyst." Apparently I had developed a large cyst (no way to know how large) that had ruptured - this was the cause of that unbearable pain. And the u/s showed that my cramping from last week was likely due to other smaller cysts that had ruptured. I have one more that is 3.5cm which we hope will just dissolve but could rupture - the tech said this one is much smaller than the one that ruptured today would have been.

At this point, honestly, I was so incredibly thankful that I wasn't having a miscarriage or ectopic pregnancy, that I didn't care about much else. But I am pregnant (ahhhh!!!), and I was having an u/s, so obviously we had to look at the uterus too.

And this is what we saw.


It's not a great picture, since it's a picture of a picture, and I forgot to turn the flash off...but I think it's still pretty clear. :)

So, like I said, it's been some 8 days for us. We are thrilled, but of course we are still very cautious...it's incredibly early. One baby measured 4 weeks 5 days, and the other measured 4 weeks 4 days. It's still too early for a heartbeat, and the gestational sacs themselves are so small (about 2 mm) that the u/s tech couldn't see inside them.

Now we wait patiently for Sept. 18th - the 8 week u/s at the fertility clinic back home. I know anything can happen between now and then, and even after then, but I'm so incredibly thankful that so far all is going well, and we've been blessed by two babies, which we pray will stick with us for the next 9 months.

Again, I'm so touched by all your support and comments, especially in light of my inability to return any comments right now. I'm with my family now (who are spoiling me rotten!), and I likely won't be back online until I return home mid-September. In the meantime, I will miss reading your blogs, but I look forward to catching up with everyone when I get back. Thanks so much for your prayers, thoughts, and support. :)

46 comments:

Brandi Tejeda said...

OMYGOSH! twins!!! wonderful! I am beyond thrilled for you! You had me tearing up AGAIN! how is it that a perfect stranger does this to me? I am just so excited for you. I have added you to my prayer list! Congrats sweetie!!

Lollipop Goldstein said...

Twins! Congratulations :-) Take it easy and rest a lot. Sending so many good thoughts.

Katrina said...

Holy crap! TWINS!!! Wow! When I was reading about your pain, I was totally fearing ectopic and am so glad that it was "just" cysts. Trust me, I know those suckers hurt like nobody's business too!

Hang in there, hope both those little boogers grow and grow and grow!

Andrea said...

How exciting!!! Congratulations :-)

shawna said...

I knew it!! I am so excited for you. Good Luck and I hope that the next few months fly by for you.

Anna said...

Major Major Congratulations!!
Wow...TWINS.. that's great.
All the best- so 'glad' it was rupturing cysts and nothing more serious.
Wishing you the best and good health.
Anna.

Lost in Space said...

Congrats on the twins!!

Amy Amy Bo Bamey said...

YEAH, I am so excited for you. Glad you pain subsided and you and now blessed with utter joy. I pray that everything continues to go smoothly for you.

Just Me. said...

Holy shit! Congrats again!!! Twins!!! How awesome!!!!


((((hugs))))

Gibson Twins said...

WOW! That is amazing- now I bet you are glad you went in!

Twins are great - lucky you :)

I am sooooo happy for you!

Jill said...

You had me scared there for a minute! TWINS! How amazing! Congrats :)

kirke said...

TWINS!! YAY!! I was so worried when I started reading your post, and so relieved by the time I got to the end.

Awesome news!

Sarah said...

Twins!!! Thats fantastic!! Congratulations!

~Jess said...

I didn't realize you were having twins. Did I miss something or is this the original announcement for the SAHW TWINS!

I just started my clomid last night. I still have a 5cm cyst, which they tried BCP on, and it didn't change.

I was wondering whether a cyst could grow large enough to rupture and what that would feel like. I'm sorry you had to go through that.

I'll be praying for all of you! Congrats again on the twins!

I Believe in Miracles said...

At first this post has me really worried, but then I saw the picture first and then I kept blinking to see if I was seeing things right. TWINS?!?!? Awesome. Awesome. How awesome. Yeah!!!!

rescogitatae said...

Twins! Congratulations! What wonderful news- best wishes for a very healthy nine months to come.

Kristin said...

OMG...yay, yay, yay...this is really incredible news!

Deb said...

Whew! That was a crazy few days. I'm glad to hear you and the deuces are ok. we look forward to hearing from you when you get back "home". take care

alicia said...

ahhhh twins!! so awesome! congrats! what a wonderful surprise!

RM said...

OMGOMOMGOMG!!!!!!!! Twins!?! Girl, I am jumping out of my seat excited for you!!! I am so glad your fam is taking such good care of you-- your body is supporting TWO little lives!!!

Alex and Jill said...

My heart stopped until I got to the u/s pic!! TWINS!!

I'm praying for you and that those two little ones will just keep growing and growing!

Congrats, girl!

((HUGS))

Dreams Come True said...

WOW!! Congratulations on twins!!! That's awesome!!!

Take care, relax!! And enjoy the happiness of twins! :D:D

Bec said...

Oh my goodness hon - that is so exciting! Twins!!!!!! :D :D :D

Miss Conception said...

OMG! OMG! OMG! OMG!!!

CONGRATULATIONS!!!!!!!!!

The Rebound Girl said...

How precious!

Kristen said...

HOLY COW! TWINS! Congrats!!!

tragicoptimist said...

Oh what a beautiful picture!!! Two! How exciting for you guys. Don't worry about missing the rest of us in the blogosphere, enjoy your family and keep on gestating. I can't wait to read your updates when you get back.

Mya said...

Congrats times two!

Gibson Twins said...

Twinspiration is a great book for pregnancy through first year of twins. Written by Cheryl Lage - she also has a blog (and boy/girl twins). You will do wonderfully!

Her blog is:
twinfatuation.blogspot.com

Katie said...

OMG!!!!!!!!!! TWINS!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Mommy Cracked said...

OMG!!!!!! YAY!!!! This is awesome!!! Congratulations!!

midlife mommy said...

Oh my goodness! Twins! I'm so glad that the pain turned out to be nothing. Congratulations!

Alisha said...

Congratulations!

And, btw, I absolutely love the little BabyAstrology bubble to the left of your blog screen... two tiny babies bobbing around in a bubble, like little moon men (or women)! :)

-Ali-

theycallmebobby said...

OMG! You commented on my blog only a month ago about how we had some much in common (met our Hubbies online, SAHWhood, infertility, etc) and how you hoped we would continue to have things in common. Well, I have two babies that everyone asks if they are twins(since they were born a year and 4 days apart) and you are having twins. I will pray and send all the sticky babydust your way that both of them stick and stay all warm and nestled in your womb for a good 9 months! Congrats. I'm just tickled pink for you!

Alex and Jill said...

Just stopping by to check on your and the babies. :) Hope all is going well!

CG said...

Congrats on the twins.

Echloe said...

TWINS!!! I'm so jealous. Congratulations.

Kristin said...

Just dropping by to check on you. Hope everything is ok.

learningtobestillandknow said...

Missing you in blog land - hope all is well!!

Just Me. said...

Hey there!

Checking in on you to see if you're ok.

(((((hugs)))))

Alex and Jill said...

Hey girl! I keep checking your blog for an update...I hope all is well with you. You and the babes are in my prayers.

((HUGS))

kaleytaylor said...

Wow congratulations! I just found your blog through my Google Reader, and I'm glad I did. I can't wait to follow your progression into motherhood - of two! How exciting!!

Kaley

Kristin said...

Are you doing ok? Just stopping in to check on you.

Sarah said...

Good luck with your U/S tomorrow!! Keep us posted

sara said...

Hope you're doing well, thanks for the kind words, and I hope your appointment goes great today! Can't wait to hear all about it. I'll keep you in my thoughts!

Clomid Prescription Medication said...

My name is Holly Lem and i would like to show you my personal experience with Clomid.

I am 28 years old. I got preg first time on my own & miscarried. after a while of trying, my dr put me on clomid. after the first round i got pregnant & miscarried. i decided not to try or think about it at all probably for a 9 months... right around the time baby would be due & then started trying again. after a few months got back on clomid. after 5 months and no pregnancy i'm giving it a rest again. it's to much disappointment. i'm going to give it a try again soon, in the mean time we're keeping our fingers crossed for the old fashioned way to work.

I have experienced some of these side effects-
HOT FLASHES, moody, cry easily, weight gain, headaches etc!!

I hope this information will be useful to others,
Holly Lem