Thursday, June 19, 2008

Before I Could Even Get Too Excited

Good old AF came. She's a day early, but hey, I'd rather a day early than a day late. One less day to get my hopes up for nothing.

Except that I was a little excited. Okay, so actually I was really excited about all the acne that I have developed in the last few days. Because normally I have pretty decent skin, and one of my friends said this was her first sign of pregnancy, and this has never happened to me before. I guess it was all the depression chocolate. Great. Now I'm not pregnant, and I look like I stepped back in time 15 years. [Stepping away from the chocolate...]

I worked hard not to over-analyze signs or symptoms this cycle, but you know how it is - it's subconscious. I didn't actually count out 9 months, I just automatically knew that it would be February if I got pregnant this month. It was hard to not think that the nausea from the meds was stronger than last time, so maybe it meant something more. It's those imaginations that just run wild and take over your subconscious.

I want to think new cycle, new hopes! But we can't even start the Clomid this month because my doctor wants to monitor me while I'm on it, and I'll be out of town during that time. Sigh. I guess we've got one last go the old-fashioned way before we get started down the high-tech path.

8 comments:

Mrs. Spit said...

I'm sorry. Rotten old Aunt Flo, she's such a bloody party pooper!

Jill said...

I'm so sorry, sweetie!

seriously? said...

Sorry AF came to visit. I wish I could get monitoring for my clomid, but since my insurance won't cover it we can't afford it so I just hope and pray that it is working.

I am quickly on my way to the dreaded unexplained diagnosis. No reason found that we shouldn't be pregnant with a sticker just yet.

I hope this au naturale cycle works for you!

Dreams Come True said...

I'm sorry about AF. That sucks.

alicia said...

Oh no!! I am soo soo sorry AF arrived. I hate that witch. And what a cruel trick your body played on you! I hate those tricks.

I really want to thank you for all your support and encaourgement you have given me lately. I really apprecaite you and am so glad we found each other through NCLM. Thank you thank you thank you. Sorry I have been an absent friend! I am really trying to catch up now!

DC said...

I'm so sorry. Those icky hormones just love to play tricks on our bodies and minds. So cruel.

Sending hugs your way.

Lost in Space said...

Sorry the old witch found you. Bitch never plays nice and the mind games suck. ((Hugs))

Still Standing Strong in A Bloom of Hope. said...

I'm sorry. The wait is always frustrating.

AF is knocoking on my door too!