Tuesday, May 6, 2008

Preganoid?

I just woke up from a strange dream in which I was talking to my closest friend from college (university for the Canadians :), who I haven't talked to in a really long time. She had called me, and I had a feeling where the conversation was going...of course she announced her pregnancy, and I had to control myself and react appropriately and congratulate her and pretend like I was a normal person.

(I think afternoon nap dreams are the worst.)

I've been feeling this sense of paranoia for some time now...that everyone around me is pregnant, they just haven't told me yet. I guess after being convinced to take a childbirth class because it would be "fun" and "good for future reference" by my friend who was actually pregnant at the time but just wasn't telling me yet kind of started it, and it's been a chain reaction ever since.

Sunday night after ice cream with some friends (DH's childhood friend and his wife), DH gets in the car and starts the conversation with a serious tone of voice, "Well actually, the thing is..." "Is she pregnant?" I blurt out, trying not to sound too desperate and inappropriately interested in his friend's wife's possible pregnancy. He looks at me confused. "No, I was saying, the thing is with the Mazda 3...". Of course it would make logical sense that we would be talking about cars since we had just been test driving, and being pregnant had had nothing whatsoever to do with the conversation about getting a new car.

Same thing a few days ago...my best friend from home calls, we haven't talked in a while, and while she's talking, all I can think of is, Is she pregnant? She just said her daughter is finally potty-trained now, so maybe that means she's ready. Maybe she just hasn't told me yet...and the thoughts took over my head so much so that I only have a very faint idea of what we talked about, because during most of the conversation, I was debating about just asking her outright whether she was or wasn't pregnant. The call got disconnected before I could make up my mind.

And so it's been...for quite a while now I guess. I hadn't realized just how bad it was until this weekend. It's normal to be curious if someone is pregnant, but for me, it's turned into this crazy obsession...it's like I have to know so I can mentally prepare myself for the announcement so I don't freak out and go crazy at that time.

Is there a cure for preganoia other than getting pregnant...because I need one fast!
*Note the term was not coined by me, I found it in Mel's emobloictionary, but it describes exactly what I'm going through right now. *

4 comments:

☆ Loren ☆ said...

I know the feeling! Dont worry you might be crazy...but at least ur not the only one. haha!! jk!

S said...

I know how you feel. When my phone rings and I see a friend's number, I immediately think 'she/he is calling to tell me they are pg'. Thanks for letting me know I am not the only one lol!!

thepromiseofourlove said...

I know how you feel. When my phone rings and I see a friend's number, I immediately think 'she/he is calling to tell me they are pg'. Thanks for letting me know I am not the only one lol!!

Steph said...

I can totally relate. Every where I turn someone is preggy or having a baby or just had a baby. When someone announces their engagement all I can think of is I'll bet they'll get preggy before me. I can't even enjoy that!!